Is it normal that i have no motivation in life?

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hi guys. well I've always felt like i don't care enough about anything or i stopped caring. i started to feel this way in middle school , i was always bullied about my weight from boys but i never thought i was so big. I've always had plenty of friends though and i always felt like id rather be with them than my own family i didn't care. I've always felt like school was a waste of time because we're all going to die anyways so why not do whatever i want? and until this day i don't care about school i never had the motivation to finish so i dropped out on my second year of high school. At home i felt like my family didn't understand all they did was yell at me and call me names and tell me i was a bum and that made me feel alone i felt like the black sheep of the family because i was always getting into trouble and my parents would always tell me to be like my cousins or my brother because of how successful they were and my father would tell me to lose weight because id be much prettier and maybe boys would like me more that just put me down i felt like nobody liked me for me. whenever i got home it always felt like i made everyone's life worse. i feel like i was never good enough for anything. i feel so happy with what i have now but at the same time i still feel the way i did in middle school it got so bad that i tried to suicide but i survived and my parents still didn't care. I dropped out on my second year of high school to live with my boy friend who has been taking care of me till this day and he treats me right but i just stay home and do nothing while he's working his butt off to keep us in our house i know i sound like a spoiled brat or ungrateful but i feel like i'm deeply misunderstood i feel like this problem has been in my chest for a long time. i'm a nice person and i could of done worse things. now i'm 18 i don't have the motivation to do anything not even to go back to school and follow my dream of working with animals i feel like whatever happens to me doesn't matter but at the same time i feel happy i feel like the only reason im alive is because my boyfriend needs me and my brother.i'm not pregnant or have a baby to stop me from having a life so why don't i take advantage of it?

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  • Terence_the_viking
    11 years ago

    Enough motivation to right all that though eh?

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  • Funkywabit
    11 years ago

    Sounds like you have a major chemical imbalance of some sort... Causing severe depression... Get some meds... They will change your life

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  • scullyfbi
    8 years ago

    You are describing symptoms of clinical depression. This is not situational, its all the time. You say you are "happy" but that can be just relative to much worse times, as you don't really know what happy feels like.

    This can't be fixed by yourself, any more than you could heal apendicitis by yourself. You know, could you just "think" your apendicitis away? Why could you then "think away" clinical depression?

    Take steps to get real treatment. Start with your primary care doctor to get referred. If not, go to a walk-in clinic and just tell them what you wrote here. Or print it and hand it to the doctor.

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  • Coolieo
    11 years ago

    My older brother is now 19, his birthday is Jan. 22.
    My older brothers name is Victor.

    When Victor was just a little kid
    He was called so many names beyond many levels
    He was fat
    He was chubby
    But he was very adorable
    And cute
    He is the greatest brother in the world
    He is Mexican
    Oh, did I forget, he's my step-brother?
    When he moved on to middle school
    Still fat
    Still chubby
    And ugly
    But
    ALL
    that changed
    When he started high school
    He gone into wrestling
    But considering you are a girl
    And you might not be up to it; I dunno what to say
    He got lean
    Now he's muscular
    It looks like he takes steroids...
    He has a girlfriend
    He never thought he would get one.
    They're going to have a baby together
    He's going to work 2 jobs
    And go to college
    Her parents hate him
    For having a baby to early
    They have broken up once
    But got back together
    When broken up for those 2 weeks
    He punched a hole through the wall
    And cried for 3 hours
    And screaming
    And screaming Arghhhhhhh whyyyyyy?wWHWYYYYYYY?
    It was sad.
    Sad.
    Then for about 2 hours
    He hugged my sister;
    Talking about his girlfriend.
    It was terribly devastating for him
    Then my dad
    And my sister
    Gave him advice
    "Get a new girlfriend! You'll be fine."
    He found someone named Selena
    He dumped her after those 2 weeks
    And got back with his first girlfriend, Christina (:
    Now, they're having a baby in about 9 months
    His girlfriend lives in his room with her
    They're so. So. So. Cute... together.
    They have lots of stuffed animals...
    THEIR ROOM IS DIRTY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
    Ugh
    But anyway
    Don't give up, whoever posted this question (:
    Life happens.
    (;
    I DON'T KNOW WHY I'M WRITING LIKE THIS, AHAH. I JUST FELT LIKE IT ;p Btw, I'm a girl [;

    "Men do not fail...they give up trying." -Elihu Root

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    • cutepanda
      11 years ago

      Thank you for everyones advice and thank you for being nice and understanding in the comments.

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      • Coolieo
        11 years ago

        You're welcome X D

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  • q1w2e3
    11 years ago

    Remember this life is not about you. You were sent into this world with a purpose, to believe in One True God (not three gods, not son god, not statue god..). Whatever you decide in this world will affect you in the hereafter, either you will be in eternal Paradise or Hellfire. So forget about this materialistic world and think about the real purpose of life! #Islam

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  • garyoakslepthere
    11 years ago

    Maybe feeling like your family doesn't care about you has depleted your motivation...? If I were you, I'd just take it easy for a while...give yourself some time; keep being nice to your boyfriend, since he's good to you; then maybe you'll start to figure things out. :) Get a pet in the meantime, since you want to work with animals, and that might cheer you up, too. In reference to an above comment: I wouldn't go for antidepressants or anything, because it sounds like any depression you may have is situational, not chemical. Good luck, and yes, everyone lacks motivation sometimes.

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    • cutepanda
      11 years ago

      Thank you for your advice it made me feel a little better to have someone that understands I will take it into consideration. :)

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