Is it normal that i have just pure bad luck?
Ive noticed i possibly have worse luck than anyone i know.
For one i am 18 in college and never had a girlfriend [cant even talk to girls because i always feel awkward (and i talk wierd because of it) }}
I am shorter than most people at 5'5, [not fat ]
but i have a deeper voice than anyone ive ever met.
Always dropping things or just plain bad timing (went to refund a book, but had to wait 20 minutes just for them to figure out what to do)
Got a haircut a few months ago before i lost all confidence(told my barber that i wanted only the back side trimmed, but he said to "trust him" and he trimmed the sides and front making it look like an afro [i will not cut it again - i look like shit with short hair]) (I DIDNT EVEN WANT A HAIRCUT IN THE FIRST PLACE, (my mom just took me from school to the barber and said to tell what i wanted done to my hair and she already scheduled an appointmet without telling me)
Always try to build confidence by going to gym (but cant show off because of the damn weather forcing me to wear a hoodie)
people stare at me when i walk by {!!}
Try to be friendly but just too awkward and intimidating...
[people seem to be too nice or holding back from being normal around me]
WTF is this shit???
{not depressed, just pissed at my self}