Is it normal that i have had a crush on a video game character for years?
So.. I'm just your average chick. Ever since I can remember, I've had a crush on a very popular video game character, and used to pretend they were there next to me, hanging out with me while I was growing up [Like an imaginary friend. I was bullied a lot in school, so I guess it was only natural for me to have this sort of coping method.] It's only been strengthened over the years as I've gotten older, and has never gone away for too long. I can function as a normal adult, and I have very normal relationships. I write and have written fanfiction about this character and alternate universes/timelines based off of the video game's lore. Sometimes I'll leave my TV on before I go to sleep, and if a video where that character's voice is in it is playing, it will slowly lull me awake. I've cosplayed as other characters from the same series as well. I will eventually cosplay as the character I have a crush on, too. Sometimes, when I do look for a partner, I look for similar qualities that the specific character I like has as well [Like a deep, deep voice or other features] Sometimes I do get lonesome because I feel like I miss that character, so I'll play the games that have that character in it. I have a bunch of collectible toys and clothing and gear that are either based off that character, or are that character. Like I said, I still have normal relationships and I know that this crush I have is on a character whom is not real, and will never be, unfortunately so. As long as this crush does not interfere in my daily life, and I'm still functioning as a normal 20 year old gal should be, is it normal?