Is it normal that i have fantasies about my mother?
Okay...this is truly my deepest secret..ever! Since I have been 13 years old I have been getting aroused at the thought of having sex with my mother. Anything and everything about her being naked or getting f#$ked made me so horny!! Since then until now (i am now 23 btw) she is my MAIN fantasy!! I do like all kinds of women, but my mother!! wow!! now i have researched a lot about this topic and have come to realize that if both sides were okay with it then its not a problem and i understand and totally respect that fact, so that is why i have never tried to engage with intercourse with my mother. I have tried many drugs in my lifetime, im not sure if you can call me a 'true' addict, i just love getting high from time to time, and i mean like really HIGH! i have been recently using crystal meth, trying to control my urges of doing it too often, until now im okay, thats not my main concern though, my main concern is that, i mainly do crystal meth for the sexual state it puts me in...i get so horny its not even funny...and the best part is that it enhances the sexual thoughts of my mother...to the extent that i search and download porn that reminds me of my mother...since im on crystal the thought just makes it seem that it can happen and that its more real...if im not on crystal i dont think there is even a slight chance that i would even try to engage in something with her...my biggest wish is for both of us to be on crystal and f#ck nasty and hardcore for hours!! and if thats not possible at least for both of us to be naked and masturbating watching my porn together...i sure you guys think im fcked up...when im not high of meth i do too...but now im f#$kin high of that shit and already been jacking off to her for the past 2 days straight...please tell me your thoughts...