Is it normal that i have emotional overloads regarding my crush?
I mean really severe emotional overloads. We have two classes in a row together. The other day, he didn't show up for the first one. I kept glancing at the door, waiting for him to show up, and when he didn't, I was so disappointed it stressed me out pretty bad. When I went to get coffee with my friend after that class, I told her how I was really hoping he would show up for my next class. And then when I walked into the room and he was there, it was like my heart dropped to my knees and exploded. I immediately regretted hoping he would be there. I had to struggle to focus during the entire class. I felt really nauseous and I didn't know what to do with myself. The emotions were so strong a few classes ago that I had to take my notebook out and write song lyrics down to at least pour them out a little bit. It helped slightly, thankfully.
The thing is, I've been in four relationships. I'm nineteen (he's twenty-one, for the record). You'd think I could handle this stuff by now, right? Well, evidently not. I've been in love before, but I've never had a crush quite this intense. I've always been able to stop myself from glancing at the guys I like, but sometimes I'll catch myself just looking at him and then I just really hope he didn't notice. Is this normal? It freaks me out, man.