Is it normal that i have depression and don't do anything to fix it?

It's easy to overwhelm yourself with thoughts of everything you need to do to improve your mental health and general well-being. I've found that accomplishing small goals helps manage this, anything that is totally doable but you've just been putting off because of lack of motivation until it starts to feel like a big thing. It's ok to take baby steps. It might not feel like you've done much at first, but if you keep on keeping on, in a couple months you will look back and see that you are capable of accomplishing these things. You will likely still have days (or a week or two) where you fall back into the bad habits, but that is okay because these things take time, just keep your goals in mind and remind yourself that if you didn't eat that salad or take a walk today, tomorrow is a completely new opportunity to do so and just keep pushing yourself until you do what you need to do (but don't dwell on what you haven't done, that can be toxic). Failure is not the problem; giving up is.

Very normal. Many people with depression can't find the motivation to do anything about it.

I suffer from depression and anxiety. I have OCD which manifests in obsessive thoughts. Mostly about reality, or, what people think of me, if my friends really care about me, etc. It's a lot to handle sometimes. My worst days are behind me I hope but it's still a struggle to move forward. It's a balancing act. And while I'm on this beam, I'm trying to juggle, juggle my happiness, and I know I will drop it. If you try to juggle, you will suck at first, but you can only learn from there.

Of course that's normal if you're depressed, it's part of the depression. You don't say if you're on anti-depressants: personally I don't recommend them, I've never had one which didn't make me even more lethargic and apathetic.

Those dark thoughts at the end of the day CAN BE CHANGED: you already have a good list there of what's good in your life, write it up as a big sign, keep a smaller one near you and when the dark thoughts come repeat all the good ones out loud and drown out that evil invading devil of depression.

I often do the "gratitude game" last thing at night in bed: out loud I say thank you for all the good things in my life: that I have a roof over my head; clean water; nourishing food; no-one is shooting at me or blowing anything up in my neighbourhood; my dog; nature ......

Not saying it's easy: some days I wake up wishing I'd had a second heart attack in my sleep because the day ahead seems pointless. I have a list in my head of small positive things to do when I feel like that: walk the dog near the river; eat well; do my stretching exercises; meditate; stay away from negative people and seek out positive ones; achieve small, even tiny goals and celebrate them. Some days for me it's as ordinary as having a shower & getting dressed & eating well, whatever I can manage I congratulate myself and build on it.

It's a hard battle but IT IS WORTH IT: what's the alternative, a wasted life?

You're 23: I so wish I was that age again and hadn't wasted so many years in depression and anxiety before I learned how to get through the bad times and enjoy life again.

I hope some of that helps and I wish you well: depression sucks but IT IS MANAGEABLE and you CAN change your life - get to it my friend, don't waste it!

I feel you on that one.

Well, depression often saps any motivation to do things, so not doing anything to fix it is pretty common.