Is it normal that i have complete melt downs with my family and bf?
Everyone thinks Im a total sweetheart.
I hate and feel uncomfortable during confrontations whether they involve me or not.
I am known for being a calm, mellow person.
However, I am so passive aggressive.. I have opinions, I get offended, I get mad and say nothing and try to act cool about everything.
When I have reached a certain limit I lash out and I do and say really stupid immature things but only to my family or boyfriend, but there may or may not be an audience..!!
I know Im not older, but Im 22 and Im having childish embarassing fits in public/at home/in front of people/alone wherever its like I dont care for whatever reason.. even at work!! (me and my boyfriend work together at a restaurant),
afterwards I feel so guilty and sooo embarassed, but no matter what I do or however many times I say to myself "I wont ever do that again!!!" I do it ANYWAYS...
Its like I cant even control myself..