Is it normal that i have an abusive conscience?
From what I understand, a normal person's conscience tells them that something they did was wrong or that something they said was rude, or whatever, and that's also what my conscience says, but the difference is that a ''normal'' conscience is described as a nice little voice that you can easily ignore, while mine sounds more like a really mean scream that won't stop.
For example, if I ever talked back to an adult as a child, it would go
''YOU PIECE OF SHIT THAT WAS AN ADULT HE IS IN COMPLETE AUTHORITY OVER YOU YOU DON'T DESERVE ANYTHING THAT ANYONE EVER GAVE YOU YOU UNGRATEFUL LITTLE FUCK HOW DARE YOU YOU STUPID CHILD'' and it would go on until I focused on something else.
I don't think it's schizophrenia. The voice never tells me to hurt someone or other things that people who hear voices generally hear these voices say. It's not a hallucination. I know it's inside of my head.