Is it normal that i hate my mother?

i hate my mum, absolutely despise her. she's made my life a living hell. she thinks she's ALWAYS right and always wins the argument. shes so up herself it makes me sick. she treats me like im 5 years old, she treats me like a toy like she owns me like she doesnt let me so ANYTHING shes always telling me how bad i am at things, she's physically hurt me multiple times ans if shes having a bad day she takes it out on the people around her, ive recently started drinking because of all the shit shes put me through and im not allowed to move out till im 21 which is bullshit i have to take stress pills and ive self harmed because of her. im not allowed to have a boyfriend or even find people attractive. she always says things to get on on my nerves on purpose. i hate her so damn much. it got so bad at a point when i was 13 that i ran away. i dont know how much longer i can deal with her shit