Is it normal that i hate my mom so much ?
So as any other teen you would say this is just the childish young me reacting to strict rules and all,but it isn't i kinda felt scared to post this but here i am at least it will take my rage away.
My story is i"m a 19 years old teen i live in a strict family where my mom rules and so my 2 old sisters while my dad and my bro are such life saviors,my mom is a 59 years old teacher which means she get to spend the summer days with me Home i hate her so much that i feel the need to rip her head off sometimes she yells at me for absolutely nothing she doesn't let me get out or have a part time job to support my needs because she finds clothing ridiculous and she doesn't give me allowance she controls my dad and he's such a sweetheart even him couldn't get out of her grip when he leaves for work she beats me for silly reasons like 'i didn't drink my milk once and she hit my head against our entrance metal door causing me to injure my head, i wear reading glasses sometimes and once she just came and hit me so hard that the glass shattered and the and cut me leaving me with an injured face, these are lately.. because what she has done for the past 15 years or idk how much is just irritating .
She acts so nice in front of my dad and so evil away from him an dmy sisters now think its okey to do the same and when i stand up for myself she calls me horrible names and asks me to shut up because they r my sisters and i can see the smirk on their faces omg ..
when i feel sick oh no u don't tell her that she just gives you the look of so what or sometimes she says what if u die ? that is better ! i mean if she doesn't care so much why did she gave birth to me ? i mean i didn't chose to but since i m here its ur duty to support me ! and i have this rage from all of this that keeps me always in bad shape and not able to eat or gain weight. i hate her so much so so so much ! but i have to keep silent about it and never tell my dad or the punishment will be more.. and where i live respecting and loving your parents is a must they dont care if they kill you, and for girls leaving home for college is a NO NO ah yes u're her child until you get married ..
i know if things keep up like this i will do bad things :(
Thanks for listening <3