Is it normal that i hate my mom since i was a little girl?

Hello! Call me Anel. I am 24 years old.i came from a little state in western europe.since I was a little girl I hate my mom.she was very violent with me.she is a teacher,out of the house she is very kind with the other people.everyone love her.she started to hit me since I was 6.she hit me for nothing and for everything,she stopped doing this when I was 16 but she never stopped to talk to me in a bad way with bad words,she told me that it was gonna be better if I wasent her child.i think she has problems with her brain.even with my father she behaves very bad.he knows what he did to me all these years but he never did smth for me .all people think that we are a happy family but I can't be a normal people anymore .iam broken and the only thing I want is to die.i love the life and my boyfriend who is the only good thing in my life . But she made me always fell that I am a nothing person and I started to believe this .i don't believe anymore to myself,I don't like anything I just wanna stay alone and see only my boyfriend.my parents don't know me at all,they always wanted me to be the way they wanted me to be .i hate my mother I don't wanna see her ,iam trying to kill my self just for giving her a really hard lesson and is the only way she understands why she did to me and Iam an only child I have no one to talk.i feel ashamed to share my problem with the others. I was very good girl,I had friends and I loved the life but my mother one day came to my class when I was 7 years old and she started to hit me infront of all just because I didn't do my math homeworks.now she is behaving very good to me he changed a bit but I don't care anymore I hate her and sometimes I wanted to kill her but I didn't do cause Iam a peaceful girl and I don't like the violence.she ruined my life and I never go to the police cause I was afraid.i only wanted some love in my life nothing else.i found the love to the other people and every time she learnd that I had a boyfriend she hit me.i don't know what to do I have no money and I can't go to the police cause my country is very small and full of corruption.