Is it normal that i hate my life and wish i were someone else?
My life sucks. I can count the number of friends I have ever had on one hand, none at the moment. All I do is play tennis for my school, practice, go home, eat, and sleep. I sometimes wish I could end this and run away and start a new life. Thanks to a few people I have grown up with I have no reputation and am ignored in school. I sit alone every day at lunch in a trance of what I wish my life could be like and how much I hate myself. Just the other day after loosing a tough match on the long ride home I sat still leaning against the window listening to my depressing music watching all the trees go by wishing I could change my life and become "normal" like everyone else. I go from wishing I weren't alive to wishing I could be someone else constantly. The only time I feel normal is when I'm sleeping, mostly dreaming of what it would feel like to be dead. I've tried but cant make friends, never had a Girlfriend, but often fantasize and daydream of having one. There is one constant through all three of my fantasies, I feel almost weightless and almost not in my body. I don't know if I can take this much longer, the only way I'm getting through it now is 6hrs of tennis practice a day that somewhat disconnects me with what is going through my mind. Please Help!