Is it normal that i hate my family?

I don't like my family. I don't like who I am around them. Angry, suspicious, and not able to express myself. This has been going on for over 20 years!

I've lost a quarter of my life trying to be with them. I accepted all the abuse and ignored it. My father is a ridiculous man. He has a great career, but he doesn't know how to raise kids. I can count maybe 3 or 4 times. If I try. I can easily recall all the times he's yelled or hit me easily. I can't recall a day when he's talked to me like a person he likes, much less loves.

I don't think I can continue to deal with this and move towards reconciliation. My mother is equally insane: she's overanxious and controlling. She thinks my life is hers to run. She's been making belittling comments about my appearance, subtly attacking my self-confidence. For years I thought why can't I stand her? It's because she's been manipulative and abusive my entire life. I'm done with her. She's got her hooks into my brother. He's got his hooks into me -- or did, I should say. No more.

I want a life free of this abusive cycle. We're not doing each other any favors by trying to stay with each other. Fuck. I'm just done.

Feel free to ask me questions about my current situation or whatever it may take for a more accurate judgment on your behalf

Okay I am 24 years old, I ended up getting out of a relationship i was in for 6 years. So losing a lot in the separation i had to move back to my Grandparents house in another state. So the same day i moved in My aunt, uncle and 2 cousins moved in as well because they had lost their home. SO now its me and 6 other people living in a 3 bedroom home. Here is why i hate my family though

Grandmother:
Says i am most likely to kill myself
Talks badly about me to others and calls me names

Grandfather:Hes okay for the most part, just old and grumpy but blames me for things his daughter(my aunt) does

Aunt:
Constantly drinking and feigning for drugs
as well as you cant say nothing to her son who is 18 and steals my clothes and is the most selfish person i have ever met in my life

Cousin:
He still my clothes, selfish, doesn't shower at all or wear deodorant. Always asks for cigarettes and only worried about doing drugs all the time.

other aunt:
Fakest person i have ever met
Talks about everyone
Is always right and talks about me and yells at me

I could go on for days with alot more members. What gets me though is that i help when and where i can. I am the only one who helps my grandparents such as house work and yard work. No one helps. Whats really crappy is how ungrateful my grandparents are. I help them without them even having to ask. I have been unemployed for a month but am starting a new job on Wednesday.

They still my clothes, make fun of me, walk all over me , accuse me of stuff i haven't done.

in conclusion i hate my family because they are inconsiderate, rude, disrespectful, and JUST MAKE ME SO FREAKING MAD.
they are a bunch of losers that are assured of their own intelligence when more than half don't even have a GED.

Am i in the wrong?

Yeah. It's normal. It's not fair at all. What if you try confronting them about it? Must be hard but worth it.

i hate my fucking uncle i fuckin hate him because he hates me, i tried to help his goddamn ass by buying him a pizza and i bought me a bag of chicken to eat he only wanted some of my food so he could feed it to hes nasty fucking dog he wouldn't have ate it his self so i said to him no i bought you guys the pizza not the chicken then he has a goddamn nerve to say well im trying to teach Michael how to share and i was sharing from when i bought them that fuckin pizza hes not grateful for what he did get i got him that and the milk and some bread and he now is saying that i don't share i hate this motherfucker,

the store was out of tyson hbbq chicken so i bought the stores brand and it wasn't good, you know what im going to do what hes doing to me to him to see how in the fuck does he like it when i do what he does i'll not eat any of his food i'll complain how he doesn't share after he buys us and him some food, then he says what i just bought that i didn't buy it and i said i did i just bought this food then he says im trying to teach you how to share when you have money BUT right fucking here is the only reason why i do not like to share with him because he doesn't care and he never likes to share nothing not a goddamn thing no cigarettes no nothing he never share nothing and i always do with the people i like he is like a damn devil and looks like one to at times after he said share that pissed me off so damn bad because i was sharing with him fucking shit i am mad at his ass,

just how how can he be so disrespectful to me all the time i did share every day is the same i can't stand him no-more nor his god fuck his god sorry-god but this is the only word that i can use to piss him off like he has done to me

I hate some of my relatives too. It is normal to hate or even want to kill your relatives occasionally but do not kill anyone. Hatred is a healthy part of life when you are wronged. Talk to tour family if that does not work exclude them from your life.

Scap goat it sucks and I'm one with my "fam" to hate them

I wouldn't blame you for it, It'd make me very angry as well.

Yes. As far as I am concerned. I have the same problem. I was always there to help and do things, but when my brother came home it was, and still is, all about him. It drives me crazy!

That would piss me off too. I hate favoritism!!