Is it normal that i hate my boyfriend but love him at the same time?
We have been dating 10 months. I used to live in the states but ive been in mexico for about 7 months. And i found out he cheated on me couple months ago. I forgave him but he also use to flirt with other girls and he cheated on me with one of my 'best friends' he says that he dosent do any of that crap anymore and i believe him. I really love him but i feel like he still lies but than im like why would he waste his / my time? I also want him to die. I used to not believe in god but now i do and i ask him to please kill him but i still love him . Help me please, is it normal i feel this way?