Is it normal that i hate my birthday, that my birthday is painful?
So I don't even know how to really explain it. Easiest way to say it is that I hate my birthday. I dread it and it's painful.It makes it worse when people bring it up or try to celebrate it. I have no idea for the reason behind it.. i never had a bad birthday... I hate growing up.... it's miserable. But yet I'm so excited to get off on my own and make my own life. It's like getting a migraine you can't take anything for it cause nothing helps... there's people that are there that makes things easier and remind you that your not alone...but it doesn't make the pain stop.....I've spent my last 4 birthdays including today crying.... and the way i feel i think something is wrong with me. I don't think I've met someone who hates their birthday as much as I do especially at such a young age.... I just feel so angry n shut down... n I feel even more angry cause my mom is forcing me to get out of my house and do something to celebrate it..... Usually people who don't like their birthday it's a self-pity situation...its not like that...