Is it normal that i hate everything about me and my life?
I'm a guy, 18... I hate my self, I've been really self concious since I was 11 I hate the way I look, for anyone that wants to know, I'm short 1m 55cm, bit chubby 11 stone, short dark blond hair, its close to brown, Redish skin, acne since I was 13, blue and green eyes (heterochromia), grey/silver and black glasses. In my life... I've only had one girlfriend and she wasn't even really a girlfriend more, really really close friend. I've never kissed anyone outside my family & I'm a virgin.
People often call me cute but I don't think they mean it. Nothing I do in life ever seems to be good enough for anyone... I underachieve, I can't focus on one thing, for example it's taken me an hour to get to this point. I've been thinking about ending it all... Is... Is this normal?