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I just left school and I hate everyone now....even my old best friends
I laugh if they get hurt and avoid everyone
They all say that I say stuff like this for attention but this is just how I feel.
I think for some reason you hate yourself.
And you don't want to die.
Something you or someone as done something to make you feel that way. What is it?
I had a 22 year old sister kill herself.
She don't feel nothing now.
But she left behind 4 kids, 3 brothers, 6 sisters and a mother to feel the pain. I was 20 and watched her die from a over dose. She was to out for me to wake up so I couldn't do anything to clean out her system before help came. See a shrink if you have to.
A 2 week supply Several prescription drugs. I can't remember the names after so many years have passed.
I know at least one was a antidepressant. It was 3 or 4 Dr. prescribed drugs.
I don't think se wanted to kill herself.
She called her shrink and told him before she passed out. He called her house where I watching her kids. I don't know how fast he called back or if she talked to him or his ans. service.
Well. I attempted myself with and I truly wanted to snuff it but failed. So I told myself next time I'll be a gun and never attempted again. I don't have a gun. lol
I had a brother that shot his self in the head.
He was dying of cancer. The second to the oldest He called our oldest brother. Went into his study locked the door. My brother and sister-in-law heard the shot. He had locked the door so my oldest brother would have to break a window and find him instead of his wife. So I lost 1 brother and 1 sister by their own doing. I didn't know him he was married and had kids before I was born. So that one didn't bother me that much. Except I did know my oldest brother and didn't like what it put him through. No LOL for him. And no LOL for my 22 year old sister that I was baby sitting for that night.
If you hate everybody so much, then stick around and make their lives miserable. Dying would only be a welcome relief for all who know you.
Your hurt about something and it's manifesting itself as anger. You're taking it out on others which isn't right. Go within and ask yourself why you are so angry and hurt....
What you don't say is if you have a job. If not, get one or join the Armed Forces. Don't be a pathetic weak sister living off others and hating them, and hating those that make a life instead of sitting on their arse.
If you are not working or studying, and are an adult white male, then you are the one that should be despised as a parasite living off the work of others. For a darkie this would be business as usual; sponging of society and moaning how hard by done you are
Become a hermit. Eat bugs, worms and pine nuts.
And keep the fuck away from all those terrible people.
Get a bike. Noting uplifts the soul and spirit like a tour on a motorbike. You never see a bike parked in front of a shrink's office.
I ride bike every day and each time i get on my spirits lift. Better than booze, better than drugs, and without the BS of women.
Just don't do the Harley thing. That is just BS image Kak. And it is a kak bike that is slow, under performs, bad brakes, poor cornering etc. The worst bike on the market. Just an example of image over substance. No need to dress like a caricature of a pirate to ride bikes. Get a bike you want, not for image.
Buy white. A european one made by white hands. Don't fill the rice bowl of the yellow man
I should have mentioned she had been in the loony bin a few weeks before. Her husband was a bartender. He took her to the bar earlier that night. I don't know what time she got home or how. He was still at work so it was before 2 AM. I feel he is partly guilty of her death.