Is it normal, that i hate digital photography?
I recently decided to studied photography and I've realized that I hate digital photography. I like vintage photographs (black and white, autochrome). I like those fashion photos in the 90's that had a blurred effect to them, but now all I see is digital. Digital doesn't look "real" to me instead it looks fake and cheap. I hate the clearness of the photographs and I feel like it's too easier to make the photographs. I feel like hard work is not taken with digital and anyone can take a photo. Vintage looks mysterious and complex. I have deep respect for the people that pioneered it.
When I got my DSLR camera, I didn't want it and a part of me still doesn't want it. I was enraged at it and I often felt like throwing it against the wall. I have to take classes before I can go to college and they're only for digital. I understand that I must take them to learn about my camera. However, I don't want to have work with it in college or when I have a career. I understand that I'll have to take digital every now and then, but I don't want my career to depend solely on it. I want to learn all of the processes of film photography. I want to use dark rooms, the "old-fashioned way".
Most of my photography is made from my iPhone. I hope I don't sound like a hypocrite and I know that iPhone is digital, but the photographs still make the "blur" that I like and if something looks too clear then they're apps that can alter the effects, but they only do so much. They still can't make the authentic vintage look and I hate that. Why have people become so dependent on digital? I just don't get it. The only plus side I can see is that you can download your photos on your computer... Is there a way that I can get that vintage look or is it impossible? I would like to buy a film camera, but I'm not sure if they're even still made. IIN?