Is it normal that i forgave him?

Is it normal to forgive the man who forced you to sex? Plus forced oral sex by his dog? We were all drinking everyone left then I don't know why. He started speaking Spanish a language I kno none thing about.He said I needed to be hurt. He pulled my pants, and I begged him to stop. He said don't move and it won't hurt .
A few hours past and he was still assaulting me. He told me he was sorry then I'm going to kill you. He was switching back and forth and one minute apologized then next saying I bought this on my self. I was so confused and ever time I started to cry he told me this is what's best. He told me I was the most important thing in his life.
I tried to escape but then he bought his dog in from the porch. He drag me to the couch and I don't know how he held my arms and open my legs up at once but he did. He called his dog and told him to lick it. I asked him why are you doing this. So he can feel how tight you are. Don't be scared baby.
The assault lasted a total of five hours. When he was done I asked to go home. I can't do that. You are going to sleep here on the couch and forget this whole thing happened. I just listen because I didn't want to get hurt anymore. Morning time came and he offer me a ride home of course I declined. I was gonna go to the police but I didn't and I still to this day. I hadn't talked to him in weeks then he called and said you wanna go to the movies. I said yes and we are friends again but I'm still scared it might happen again. Am I crazy for forgiving him? I'm not one to hold grudges.