Is it normal that i feel this way?

57% Normal
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this is a problem that im having, and i really cant create a correct answer for it i sit and think about it everyday but im getting no where. im 21 years old and ive never had a job (yikes) as a kid i was always in the house and such and i was abused when i was younger. so im not much of a people person. so now im 21 and not doing anything. i tryed the ged but that costs money and i havent been in school for sometime. the only job i ever had was an under the table job which made me do everything for little money. i do job applications but im either short schooling or experience usually both. now that you got some background heres my question that i need a answer to. lately i feel like im freaking out. i get depressed and i cry, other times i feel nothing nada completly numb, i cant think stright and i have to smoke a cigar or drink liquor (which i just picked up this habit) to calm me down. nobody texts me nor call me anymore and when i do the conversation never lasts, im usually home reading or wall watching. my mom i know shes tired of me and hurts my feelings alot to the point im crying (i cant handle getting yelled at). im not suicidal i thought about it a few times but my brain rejects it completly (thank goodness) and im dating a guy which is way older than me but hes a good guy its just that sometimes i dont want to be touched or have sex (which for a guy is hell haha) and i cant explain anything to him he just doesnt understand what im going through. so is this truly normal, feeling all of this or am i just loosing all my screws?

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57% Normal
Based on 7 votes (4 yes)
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  • pixie44
    8 years ago

    You need to talk to someone. It sounds like not only do you have depression but also social anxiety. Get help as soon as possible so you can get your life on track. Went through the same thing too don't worry. Just got my shit together a couple years ago and I'm finally so proud of myself. It took me a while too. Best medicine that has helped me is xanax(for anxiety). Ask your doctor about that and see if it would help you out.
    I also would write goals on a piece of paper to remind me HEY DO THIS! Like: Get a Job, Go to school, Take my medicine. etc.

    Best of luck !! You got this!! You can do it!! and if you need anyone to talk to or any other tips just let me know. I got you :)

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  • theseeker
    8 years ago

    Sounds like high levels of depression and anxiety. You're not the only person that feels this way. Sometimes I feel similar, such as not being able to think clearly, emotionless, drowsy, zoned out, and more. Try not to rely on the liquor if you can help it. Not a good habit to get into.

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  • thegypsysailor
    8 years ago

    Pretty much nothing in your post is 'normal'.
    You need to start night school or just find some online courses and work on your English to begin with. If you write for a job interview as you've done here, you are NOT going to get a decent job. No offense, but really.
    There is an oil boon right now in North Dakota where ANYBODY can find work, even with no experience or education. At least it beats the shit out of sitting around the house being depressed.

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  • Freedom_
    8 years ago

    It's normal to feel that way under the circumstances. I don't have much going on in my life right now, so i feel pretty depressed somedays. Figure out what you want and need to do (writing it down helps, and prioritizing your goals) and take baby steps toward those things. Even accomplishing little tasks like cleaning your room or car can help give you a boost, and then just keep moving. Don't worry about how long it takes, as long as you don't stop trying to move forward. But you have to come up with a plan and stick to it. Do work around your house to keep busy, if nothing else. When I'm feeling worthless I break out the old push mower or start planting flowers and veggies and stuff.

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  • peterr2
    8 years ago

    You can always suck cocks! At least it will be fun.

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