Is it normal that i feel this affected by the racists on the internet
We all know that the internet is home to tons of racists. However, I have seen them too often and I am starting to feel affected by them. It started around 3 years ago when I saw a video of Chinese people tending after dogs and then there was a flood of racist comments and many of them got thumbs up because apparently all Chinese eat dogs as a daily habit. Sooner or later, everywhere I went on the internet there were so many people who post tons of racist stuff about them and get top rated comments. Whenever someone brought up a Chinese or Asian into any case where animals were not treated like gods, there was sure to be a large racist influx. There were tons of stuff saying that all Chinese (and even Asians in general) love to abuse animals and there were also tons of genocidal comments against them that were even approved by others.
I am Chinese. I hate animal abusers; I think they should be beaten. My family comes from Asia: They do not abuse animals, they say that all the cruelty cases sicken them. I have Chinese friends from China who say that too. The three major Chinese religions (Taoism, Buddhism (from India but a significant following from Chinese/Mongoloids) and Confucianism) call for respect of animals. There is a Chinese Animal Protection Network. Most Chinese in China don't even eat meat most of the time.
I know I shouldn't let these haters bother me but they really are. These racist and stereotypical comments keep replaying in my head like if someone put a CD in a player and broke all the buttons after pressing play. It has gotten to the point where whenever I look at my own race those racist comments suddenly replay. Everytime I see any video of animal abuse the slurs against the Chinese keep reappearing in my head even when it's other races. It keeps me up at night. I keep trying to counter those thoughts in my mind but they keep getting louder.
Is this normal for this to happen to me? And how can I shut them off?