Is it normal that i feel spiritually obligated to adopt a child?

Hi there, everyone. Please pardon me if this seems long.

This morning, I've been thinking about my beliefs towards adopting vs having a baby. I came to realize that I have a 'spiritual obligation' to adopt. You see, despite having a good mother, I grew up without a paternal figure in my life therefore giving me this huge sense of longing for the missing father I never had (my biological father never cared so it's obvious I can't consider him one). Eversince I was a preteen I had one in my dreams but because I don't know what's real, I cannot include those dreams. Because of my longing, I personally feel that it would be all kinds of wrong if I went ahead and just had a baby in my lifetime. I feel as if I would have horrible guilt as well as depression. It's likely those things would wind up killing me. I swore to myself that if I ever get in the finiacial situation to where I'm secure, I'd adopt a child from Foster Care. I feel that because of my own longing, adoption is the only route of parenthood I can take.

I may not be able to undo my own emotional pain (it's a scar that runs long and deep), but I can certainly try easing the pain of a child that's already here. I feel that once I do that in life (if I can do it at all), I can die happy knowing I was there for a child in need giving the kid both a home and a mother to call his/her own.