Is it normal that i feel like this?

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I know I should be going to a doctor for this but my doctor is horrible and so is every other one I've been to and they don't help me so. I don't know if it's me, or the people around me. Me and my boyfriend fight everyday, there is always atleast one arguement big or small, me and my mom rarely get along, whenever I'm at the dinner table 99% of the time an arguement breaks out with me and another family member, they favourite my older sibling (22 M) he always amounted to more in his life, he had a job at 15, he has a car, a very good job right now, pays for his bills and insurance, a lot of money, and moving out soon. I'm 17 Female, almost 18, no motivation to get my license don't even have my G1, and don't want to get it, never had a job tried to get one, no one has ever even brought me in for an interview, I have depression I have self harmed many times, I've thought about suicide, i have no friends, I only have my boyfriend and even he tells me to grow up sometimes and that I need to do something with my life, I have anxiety, he's barely there for me anymore, says I do it to myself and that I make myself unhappy cause all I do is think, I'm always there for everyone no one is ever there for me, and when they are they judge me, girls always try and beef me/fight me, I feel so scared at school everyday, I can't even walk to my bus stop alone after school cause I don't trust anyone, I used to think singing, and drawing and painting, and sleepovers and makeup were fun things to do, but lately I don't feel like doing anything, I barely smile, I barely laugh even around my boyfriend, everyday is shit to me and my mood swings are horrible, I've even tried drinking myself to death, my mom said if I ever get pregnant in her house she's kicking me out, I'm underweight, I'm 5'4 and was just 108 pounds the other day, when im supposed to be more then that, I feel like I literally have no purpose in life, I feel like my boyfriend would be stress free if I wasent here or if he never met me, one minute im happy and the next I'm sad even if I don't think about any thing, I'm not excited for anything anymore, I get up shower, eat, go to school, come home, it's the same routine, at school most of the time I don't even eat the whole day, my boyfriend tells me I'm over reacting and acts like I don't have real problems which really hurts me. I feel lost, and it makes me wanna end everything. I don't know what's wrong with me..

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  • Plutopluto
    7 years ago

    1. Find a doctor you can trust; if you need medication it's important you get it!
    2. Consider therapy sessions (if only to have someone to unload onto in the abscence of friends)
    3. Find a way to cope with your problems long term, because medication will only get you so far. Keep a diary, run every morning etc. Find something you're even a little passionate about, because it will be your coping mechanism when you feel your worst. It can be something as simple as watching the sunrise or sunset even!
    3. Realise that other people can't help you as much as you can help yourself; in the end, you are your own saviour. It's hard, but learn to be happy within yourself. Positive affirmation really works :)
    4. That said, talk to your family about what you're going through, be it one person. Then talk to your boyfriend about how his dismissive attitude towards you is hurting you. You may need him now, but know that a person like him does more harm than good in the end. You're better off alone than with someone who brings you down.
    5. Accept your feelings, they're normal. (This should have been first but already started the list!)

    A lot of people feel the same way you do, don't doubt that. Another tip is to find something that makes you laugh; tumblr and pinterest are great for that (personally). Good luck :)

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  • TPR.H
    7 years ago

    I feel you i hv been through such a thing when m younger nd m now in a bad time as well ... dunno but try to think more widly ... nd be someone u proud of hv fun nd do ur work as long as u dnt hv other plans . U dnt need a doctor u r ur doctor . As long as u see the doc is not helping leave him . Nd maybe u need some close friends .

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  • MichaelMyersindarkness
    7 years ago

    You need to live on the streets and be happy.

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