Is it normal that i feel like thinking and doing are the same?

I don't share your thoughts. Thinking about something is different from doing it. If you knew all those things I had on my mind.

WTF?

In my humble opinion you have a victim's mentality and that sort of mentality usually gives way to feelings of entitlement. People who feel entitled are rarely satisfied and usually not very happy.

I used to be a lot like what you're describing and I'm still that way to some degree but I have been working on myself and will continue to do so because the benefits are very much worth it.

Consider this, stop comparing other people's outsides to your insides. Try doing some journaling and see a therapist if you are experiencing anxiety or depression. Also, check out this website <a href="http://www.coda.org/" rel="nofollow">http://www.coda.org/</a> see if any of it fits.

This doesn't make sense. You can't help it if you find someone attractive while you're in a relationship, but you're not a cheater as long as you remain faithful to your significant other. It just doesn't work that way. You can't control feelings, only actions.

Same can be said for the second paragraph. I've had fantasies of hurting or even killing people, which I feel bad about but I have some anger issues so I can't help it. I would never actually make those fantasies reality. But am I a terrible person in your eyes just for envisioning it?

Okay, here comes a sad truth:
No man in the world will find nobody else hot unless he doesen't find you hot either.

Yes, thoughts can be bad too, but they're not the same as deeds. Simply because thoughts alone don't kill or f**k people. You can't choose what urges you get, it just happens. But if you enjoy the thoughts about cheating or murdering and keep feeding them you are infact "doing" something.

I "think" your thoughts are ridiculous. You are going to have a very hard time finding someone who only thinks you are attractive. With your philosophy the majority of people would be in jail and single.

Incredibly unrealistic. Lets say you are very attractive indisputably and you have a guy friend who has a girlfriend. Does that mean that suddenly you are indisputably ugly to him? Nope, you're still attractive and you would dismiss other opinions because you know you're attractive. Now lets say you're the girlfriend of the guy and the attractive girl is just a friend of yours. Was she ugly before you got with your boyfriend? Is she ugly now? Nope, she is the same attractive girl before and after. The difference is that the guy chose you over her so he already prefers your beauty, no need to come up with crazy rules that limit thoughts for the safety of yours. Thoughts like what you described gives off the idea that you must be on top of the world and no one else can have anything or else they are worthless to you. You don't want to be in the ranks of Cruella de Vil and Maleficent, you want to be an understanding female who doesn't need all to herself.

The truth is that you CAN control your thoughts and they should be taken very seriously because all actions start out as thoughts. We all have subconscious thinking that is beyond our control, but we still can be trained to think differently.

I wanna kill and I dont care ending up in the jail altho I dont want to make troubles to my family. Am I a murderer or a realist ?

Woow. Than you don't want to know what I am..

This is the most ludicrous thing I've heard for today...

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You both have a point. Their is will power when it comes to not acting on certain negative thoughts, but harbouring these thoughts are almost just as dangerous as acting on them. Maybe you didn't sleep around (example) but you thought about it enough times that you've already emotionally strayed from your boyfriend.