Is it normal that i feel like i don't have a family even though i do?
My family keeps too many secrets from me. My sister wrecked the back of my car and didn't even apologize or acknowledge damaging it. When I confronted her she said (with a smirk on her face) that I did it but must have forgotten. She implied that I wrecked my own vehicle without remembering. How dumb does she think I am? I do not smoke, drink, or use drugs so I am always in the right state of mind. It is still messed up because I have no money to fix it.
Recently, my older sister told me that my other sister (who wrecked my car) was pregnant. I was waiting for her to tell me when I recently saw her for 3 days straight but she never did. My pregnant sister told my mom, dad, and other sister not to tell me because quote: "I'm weird." My older sister thought I had the right to know but I still pretend like I don't so she won't get mad at my older sister for spilling the beans.
My older sister doesn't ever let me hang out with her she is too busy with her boyfriend and doesn't answer when I call her. This hurt my feelings.
For a short period of time I was homeless (not by choice) it was lack of income and I ended up getting evicted from my apartment. My entire family went on vacation (without me I might add) and they all knew I was living in my car. Why do they keep secrets and why do they not lend a helping hand? They have always treated me like I don't matter or have any feelings.
Why do they do that? I tell them everything and don't keep secrets from them but when I share it's like they just disregard whatever it is I'm telling them. I once got caught in a police raid (wrong place wrong time) and when I used my one call while in jail to call my dad the counselor put him on speaker phone and he said "Let her rot" he didn't even let me tell him the story.
I was released on my own recognizance after spending the weekend in jail. If I was guilty of something they would have kept me there. During the raid I was put in cuffs after they ran my name because I had a warrant due to an unpaid traffic ticket. Again that was because I had no funds to pay. I feel so alone in this world. What can I do to make myself feel complete? I do not feel loved at all...