Is it normal that i feel like i am fake?

When I was a teenager I would watch my sister get ready for her job and I would get sad and cry. I felt like her life was real, I would feel like my life was fake. I sometimes see other people living their life and I keep wondering when does my life begin? I am engaged to be married and I am in College. I thought I would feel different. I do not feel like an adult. I am close to graduation. I am still hung up on my former teacher. complicated stuff right there. I feel his life is real. He is writing a novel. I know I am a real person, I guess I am saying I feel like an observer a lot of times. like I am watching a movie of everyone else living their life with ease, so it seems, because I am aware people have struggles. does anyone relate? I tried to explain this in threapy with no luck.

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  • Quit looking at everyone else and just live your life.

    A race isn't won by looking back at those you're smoking but by keeping your focus grimly locked on the path ahead.

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  • You're real. You're life is real. Everything around you is real. It seems like you keep comparing yourself to other people. Concentrate on your life and what you want to make out of it. Your life already started. Don't compare your life with everyone else's. Everyone has their own ways.

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  • Galvani

    Well it's normal but nobody's life is perfect, and some people are in worse situations.

    I have Epilepsy, Rheuma, weak muscles (endurance), got kicked out of college due to handicaps (ironically a college for handicapped people), may never drive a car, no chance for a job, and am single. And yet I accept it.

    Sure I wish it was different but it isn't, so I look at the positive things, friends, family etc.

    And you should do the same.

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  • nagasonavimana

    You start to live your life when you deliberately make bad decisions for shits and giggles.

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  • daydreamer394

    Hello, are you still there because I would like to talk.

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  • ieatrocksdirt

    i always feel like im on the outside looking in.

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  • MissClaire

    I completely understand. I keep associating goals with maturity - like once I get a house, I will change to be the person I want to be, mature, real etc.....
    Recently, I've decided to dig a bit deeper and figure out why I dont feel 'up to par' with myself.

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  • cookiesaregreat

    I must say its the same for me, but not as bad as you've got it.

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