Is it normal that i feel hatred towards my family
I feel like I've wasted my entire life, and that I could never make up for everything I've missed, and that I could never develop the social skills needed for talking to people. I lived a sheltered life (over sheltered) from the age of 7 until i was 15 thanks to my stupid paranoid parents, waste of space that they are. I was subsequently bullied by the other kids in my village because of the way i was, and the way i lived. My mother especially, never encouraged me to make anything of my life, it was a meaningless life of make her tea, and sign my disabillity benefit over to her, to squander it away on rubbish. This has made me bitter over the past 10 years. When i started to venture out on my own, i was already 22, i had no structuring, and i had no social skills. I was just a walking moron who had no friends, and had never had GF experience either at that time. I decided to enrol at a college, but i lasted only a few months, it was the novelty of looking and acting like a student that appealed to me. I also joined an adult access course at my local university, but i was not entitled to the privilages that are offered to undergraduate students. I was only given a pictureless card with only my name. I couldn't use the sports facillities nor the students union, except for the library. This only drove me more towards anger and hatred towards students in general, Now at the age of 30, i have no job, i have no friends,and no chance to gain back the best years of my life. I hate my parent with a passion, i hope they rot in hell.