Is it normal that i fear my brother might be attracted to me?
Well I recently got back in touch with my half brother who's only two years younger than me, back when we were younger, when I still lived in the Bronx we were around eachother 24/7 along with my half sister --------.
We all have the same father but different mothers, and I was talking to him one day just to catch up on everything i've missed and vice versa, nothing's changed we're still the same way towards eachother though he's alittle thugish, but we're alos a little closer as well.
What worries me is I think he might actually be attracted to me, and that's a little bit of a problem considering his mother and my mother would be livid if this was true, and being that i'm gay it doesn't help either.
What brought this is up was a conversation we were having, he's not too happy living with his mom and her boyfriend, this I know very well because I can feel the hatred he has for her which saddens me but I understand why, So I told him when he and I graduate, and finally get my license and a car, that I would go back to New York and find an apartment, and stay close to him so if he ever needed me i'd be there, and a deal we made was if he finished high school like i'm going to, that he can come live with me for as long as he needs, and wants to.
The problem is that i'm going to be with my adopted sister so if anything we'd end up in a two bedroom apartment, and so he asked me if me and him were going to share a room, I told him i'm not sure probably if he didn't mind and he said that he would prefer sharing a room with me rather than being seperated, then he asked me if we'd be sharing a bed, and I said i'd most likely get him a bed before that and he told me that he'd rather sleep in the same bad with me than in a bed alone, and he asked if i'd be okay with that, and preferably I wouldn't mind considering i'm afraid of the dark, and I do need a sense of security when I sleep in order to fall asleep, and he told me that he'd hold me to help me sleep, and at first I thought that was just a joke but he was serious, and honestly I wouldn't mind.
Then another conversation we had we talked about our bodies just outta curiosity and he seemed very, very interested, and he made certain comments to where I could not tell whether or not they were jokes. At one point the conversation turned into a fetish topic and I told him I am a Masochist and that I like pain, and he seemed rather intrigued by that....and he also asked me about the sexual things I have done.
I'm a little worried because I don't want him being attracted to me, because I don't want to violate him in any way, Do you think I should be worried or does he just love me?
{I'm 20 years old and i'm a guy
He's 18 years old}