Is it normal that i fantasize abt the girl i love literally killing me

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Me 27 years old:3/10 in appearance. Kissless virgin.
Her 25 years old:10/10 in appearance(literally not kidding).

She is my junior in office. Obviously & by-design I have no chance with her.

During our team meeting she was sitting besides me, I for some reason couldn't help imagining:
1) her standing up and bashing my head bloody with her laptop
2) her choking me to death with the nearby LAN cable
3) her breaking the window with the chair and throwing me down
4) her stabbing me hundreds of times in my chest

Am I on my way to becoming some kind of psycho masochist? It wasn't sexual...I mean I don't have a boner or something while imagining this.

I just can't stop myself form imagining it and to my horror wanting it to happen.

PS: I don't want pity, I know my level. I will never settle for a lower quality girl (as expected of me) and I don't want a partner as somebody who settles for a 3/10. This contradiction has only one logical resolution, me never having a relationship with a women. Is this a side effect of my convictions. Do I need a therapist?

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  • yokohama
    7 years ago

    So I'm not a therapist or anything but that sounds like it could be related to self esteem issues? It could also just be an intrusive thought thing (which are really weird but totally normal). I mean if you're really concerned, you should talk to someone qualified but I don't think you *need* a therapist.

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  • wereheretorescueyou
    7 years ago

    https://momentumeducation.com/

    https://synergyeducationinc.com/

    Check these programs out. They help out with problems like yours.

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  • wereheretorescueyou
    7 years ago

    https://synergyeducationinc.com/

    https://momentumeducation.com/

    Any one of these two programs will help with your ponderings. They helped me.

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  • riffraffy
    7 years ago

    Quote from Dr. Robert Glover, author of No More Mr. Nice Guy: "Seeking women's approval creates rage towards women."

    Except in your case, your very low sense of self-worth points that rage towards yourself. First increase your self-worth and the self-esteem will follow.

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  • RoseIsabella
    7 years ago

    Yes, you need a therapist.

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  • Terence_the_viking
    7 years ago

    Society is full of shit a 3 can easily score a 10.

    You gotta have faith in yourself brother.

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