Is it normal that i fantasize about my teacher adopting me?

I fantasize a lot about my history teacher adopting me. Something you should know about me is that my parents really hate me, and I hate them. They are all negative influences on me. I can feel a person's emotions and vibes because I'm high-sensitive, and he feels amazing (non-romantic). I wish I could live somewhere calm and with somebody who takes me for who I am and he makes me feel safe, normal and understood. But I feel really creepy because I even looked up his address and he lives relatively close to me... I have urges to go to his house just to look at it. Sometimes I just want to hug him or touch him (not sexual) because for some reason I need physical reassurance or something. I also get jealous when other people have nice conversations with him. I have told him a lot and he is like my role-model for everything I do in my life. I feel like I subconsciously try to get his attention all the time during class. Because if I look back at this year I did go out of my way to get him to talk to me and stuff. And now summer holidays are coming and I feel like I'm not going to survive because he may not be my teacher anymore next year. Im panicking... I don't know what to do.. is it normal that I think these things?