Is it normal that i fantasize about being a child during sex?

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I had a great childhood and was never molested or anything like that, but as I teenager I began to notice I was only attracted to men MUCH older than I was. It was almost impossible for me to find a boyfriend because I was always looking for men 10+ years older than I was! Now I'm 21 and married to a 31 year old guy, so it all worked out well.

But when I masturbate, or have sex, or even just let myself daydream about sexy things, I almost always imagine myself as a child. I don't always look like me necessarily, sometimes I imagine myself with very wealthy parents or different hair or eyes, but it's me. I keep having fantasies about an older guy (30 or 40!) "teaching" me how to have sex. In my fantasies I'm usually 10 or 11, but I've imagined myself being as young as 6

I can only get off to "barely legal" teen porn, and I always imagine I'm the model, and I desperately wish I still looked like I could pass for 15. Occasionally I've found some "gray area" drawn pornography on rule 21 and I like it quite a bit. However, the idea of looking at actual child porn kind of disgusts/scares me, because it's illegal and because it's hurting an actual child, and I am 100% against causing people trauma, no matter the age. And I'd NEVER, EVER try to molest a child, ever. I still find that disgusting, at least.

So what do you think? Am I some kind of sick reverse pedophile?

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  • GreyWulfen
    9 years ago

    "Reverse pedophile", that's an interesting term.
    Well, I guess this is some kind of fetish, maybe in the same category as adult babies and stuff like that. I'm almost sure there is a word for it.

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  • disthing
    9 years ago

    Sounds like a paraphilia to me.

    Not a very normal one, but harmless - as long as you stick to the legal stuff.

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  • Avant-Garde
    9 years ago

    This could be due to something psychological.

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  • Couman
    9 years ago

    Well, "age play" is a thing. Not my kink, but I'm pretty sure it's not only for the benefit for person in the adult role. So you're not alone at least, even if it isn't exactly normal.

    Regarding your art interests, drawings of that type are often known by the Japanese term lolicon. It's legal in the US, probably. But if you want to go looking for it, using Tor isn't a bad idea.

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