Is it normal that i fantasize about actual rape?
Every site I visit, including this one, claims it isn't actual rape that girls fantasize about unless they themselves have been raped, in which case it's more of a nightmare. I honestly have dreams about actual, frightening, violent rape as well as fantasies when my mind wanders while I'm awake. Sometimes they're nightmares and I wake up crying and sometimes it's a strangely arousing dream/fantasy. I feel guilty and horrible and I need to know if anyone else dreams/has nightmares/fantasizes about real, genuine horrible rape.