Is it normal that i enjoyed watching my wife get fucked........

For many years my wifes favorite hobby was having me haul her around until she spotted a hitchhiker whom she could entice into going with us to a motel or to our home & then having him fuck her while I watched. When he would finally cum deep into her she would push him away & order me to suck his cum from her hole til every drop was out. Once in a while she would turn around & give him a blow job til he was ready to cum again then she would jump back & make me take his cock into my mouth to catch his 2nd hot load. I would sometimes get so excited watching her getting fucked (especially if he had a large cock) that I would ejaculate just from watching them. Sometimes she would talk them into pissing all over me & order me to drink his pee. I got to admit that at first I was very reluctant to see her fuck strangers & then make me eat their cum or drink their pee but I really miss the excitement now that we are divorced. God I miss that whore. I mostly miss the feel of a guys hard cock pumping cum into my mouth or them pissing me. Anyone else have these cravings...........?