Is it normal that i dream about my father being executed?
Alright, so let me tell you all about my dream and "past" that confuses me. When I was around the age of four my father kidnapped me for 7 years and isolated me from everyone, since then Ive held a grudge against him and hated him quite badly. Im half persian and so is my father, hes in several groups that are against the islamic republic state of Iran and he wants democracy for the people. Anyway, what bugs and confuses me is my recent dreams about me and my father. Every night when I go happily to bed, I start dreaming. I dream that me and my dad are arrested in Iran. We're lined up in the desert along with other people that got bags over their heads but me and my dad dont, one guard walks over to me and well... he begins to beat me up badly, then he goes to my father and beats him aswell. The guard then forces my dad onto his knees and my dad looked at me with sorrowfull eyes before whispering something to me and two seconds after he was shot in the head with an ak47 by the guard. When that happened I could feel both fear and anger.. Usually after that I wake up. The most annoying thing is I never remember what he whispers to me I also dont know why Im so sweaty and shocked when I wake up, I mean.. Sure hes my father but I wouldnt care for shit if he was killed or not... well thats a lie, It'd tear me apart ofcourse but I really dont know whats going on in my mind. Its so annoying to dream about my father being executed over and over again, could this mean something?
Just a side note:
My father and his family never called me back since the day the authorities helped me escape from my dad and live with my mom. Its been 5 years since I last spoke to him and my lil brother, I dont know where they are anymore. I bet my dad have raised my brother to believe that Im not his real brother.
So yeah, I know its weird but I wouldnt be here asking for advice if I thought this is normal. But what do you people think I should do? It makes me depressed and angry everytime I dream about this, I just feel so confused, could any of ya atleast tell me what ya think this could be? It keeps repeating week after week and im so sick tired, please help me out guys?
Thank you all in advance and thank you for taking your time and reading this. You deserve a medal! :)