Is it normal that i dont do anything?

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Yeah, so I really have this annoying thought in my mind. I'm scared to do things. Like anything. I'm scared of waking up early on weekend like at 6.30. Because my parents often wake up at like 12 o'clock. I'm scared of going to shower or bath at daytime because I feel like Its not normal? I'm scared of doing like anything in my own way because I feel like its not normal? I cant explain it very well, but I hope someone gets the point. Every time I do something that makes me happy or do something in my own way someone always is criticizing me. For example I like to paint, I don't care what my moms opinion is about my painting. But it still drowns me when she asks something like "Why its so dark? Could you add some more colors on it?" Its like UGH. BECAUSE I WANTED TO AND NO I'M NOT ADDING ANY COLORS. What if my soul or thoughts are dark at the moment and I just wanted to paint something dark. Like I don't get it. Its a small think. You may think now that I'm overreacting but this happens everyday several times in different situations. And funny thing is that I never question anybody. I let people be the way they are. Also I like to listen many kind of music, for example today I feel like listening to classic music, but yesterday I listened to heavy metal. And someone always question me like "how you can like music with such big difference?" I don'n fu*king know? its just me? God please someone help me...?

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  • theseeker
    9 years ago

    I can kind of relate, but this sounds like an extreme fear of being judged. I've had a lot of people tell me what I should be doing, or that I should be doing things in a certain way. I've always been one to go it alone, therefore I always felt "different" than everybody else. I used to be afraid to express myself, but I've come to realize, I can't try to hide behind myself anymore.

    If something makes you happy don't let anybody tell you differently. Be yourself, express yourself and don't be ashamed. If someone looks down on you because of it they are ignorant, fuck em! They are the one with the problem, not you!

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    • ode.le
      9 years ago

      Yeah that helped me a lot! Thank you. I dont have any other choise than to just be me have I? Haha :')

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      • theseeker
        9 years ago

        Don't mention it. I really hope that it does help you. Caring about what people think of you too much can hold you back. Just gotta let go and not worry so much, if you can help it.

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  • thegypsysailor
    9 years ago

    How old are you?
    As an adult, you will learn that there is no need to balance between pleasing people and being myself. At times, like when applying for a job, you can ease your way by being more like the pack, but most of the time it's more comfortable to be true to yourself.

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    • ode.le
      9 years ago

      I'm turning 18... and yeah I think youre right... I just cant help myself? Its so hard to be myself but I really don't want to be anything else than me... I think I can't take criticism because I've been bullied in primary school and in junior high school...

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  • Ace09
    9 years ago

    I think u should say sth to them.

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  • sky38203
    9 years ago

    IDK what to say...thats not normal...I have never head of it.

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    • ode.le
      9 years ago

      Yeah I kinda know that this is not normal... but I cant like form the balance between pleasing people and being myself...

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      • Short4Words
        9 years ago

        The thing is that you say FUCK pleasing people and do what pleases yourself. You sound like an interesting person full of potential and I wouldn't let anyone rain on your parade.

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        • ode.le
          9 years ago

          Thank you very much! ^_^ <3

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