Is it normal that i don't want to speak to my father again?

I am going to get straight into the point: I stopped communicating with my father in early 2014 after dealing with his abuse on a constant basis. I hate him.

Currently, I am a 29-year-old male with a history of extreme obesity and severe depression dating back at least to my pre-teen years. As a child, I dealt with severe emotional and at times physical abuse from my father; both of which contributed to me weighing around 368 lbs. by the time I was 17 years old. In 2009, I was diagnosed with moderate-to-severe depression, a condition that has required me to seek help since then from at least four specialists on an on-and-off basis, as well as one hospitalization in late 2012. Although I realize I cannot be a perpetual victim, I realize that many of the problems I have faced were due to the bullying I faced at school along with my father's alcohol-ridden tantrums.

Now he wants to reestablish a relationship, but far too often it seems based on the same petulant need to criticize and analyze everything I do, a desire to assert dominance, and my general unhappiness. Although I realize he may mean well at times, I am tired of him.

Above all, there is the elephant in the room that is so simple to understand: I am happier without him in my life. So much happier. Not talking to him has been a relief; I imagine ending a bad marriage would feel like this. It's blissful.

This post is not meant to be a "woe is me" tangent on how all the misery in my life is due to him. I have done every single thing possible to improve myself as a man. This post is simply an affirmation that no longer dealing with or communicating with him was the impetus needed for me to get the help I needed and live a better life.

Is it normal to hate your father? Is it normal, given my circumstances, to no longer want to talk to him?

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76% Normal
Based on 37 votes (28 yes)
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Comments ( 3 )
  • clevertrevor1

    What goes over your lips will spread to your hips!

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  • _Mehhhh_

    I don't think he means well if he's being overly critical all the time. It doesn't really matter what he intends though, the outcome is he's fucking abusive.

    I'd ditch and dash too in your situation. You're old enough to make that decision, if you're better off without him in your life it's probably for the best.

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  • Old-Dog

    You may have reason to hate him. Hate is not good for your well being. Just let him know you don't want or need him in your life.

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