Is it normal that i don't want to speak to my father again?
I am going to get straight into the point: I stopped communicating with my father in early 2014 after dealing with his abuse on a constant basis. I hate him.
Currently, I am a 29-year-old male with a history of extreme obesity and severe depression dating back at least to my pre-teen years. As a child, I dealt with severe emotional and at times physical abuse from my father; both of which contributed to me weighing around 368 lbs. by the time I was 17 years old. In 2009, I was diagnosed with moderate-to-severe depression, a condition that has required me to seek help since then from at least four specialists on an on-and-off basis, as well as one hospitalization in late 2012. Although I realize I cannot be a perpetual victim, I realize that many of the problems I have faced were due to the bullying I faced at school along with my father's alcohol-ridden tantrums.
Now he wants to reestablish a relationship, but far too often it seems based on the same petulant need to criticize and analyze everything I do, a desire to assert dominance, and my general unhappiness. Although I realize he may mean well at times, I am tired of him.
Above all, there is the elephant in the room that is so simple to understand: I am happier without him in my life. So much happier. Not talking to him has been a relief; I imagine ending a bad marriage would feel like this. It's blissful.
This post is not meant to be a "woe is me" tangent on how all the misery in my life is due to him. I have done every single thing possible to improve myself as a man. This post is simply an affirmation that no longer dealing with or communicating with him was the impetus needed for me to get the help I needed and live a better life.
Is it normal to hate your father? Is it normal, given my circumstances, to no longer want to talk to him?