Is it normal that i don't want to have sex with anybody? ever?
I'm a woman. I'm 20 years old. I've had relationships with men in the past. I've had sex with men in the past. But, I never really, truly wanted to. And it was never truly enjoyable. I would go out with attractive, nice males because it seemed like it was what I was supposed to do. I have constantly felt like there's this expectation weighing down on me that I must feel aroused at the advances of attractive men, but this isn't the case for me. It's coming up on a year since I've had any hint of sexual relations with a man and it's been the happiest year of my life. I did some research only yesterday about asexuality, and I'm pretty sure I fit the bill. I love hanging out with people of all sexes, sexual orientations, races, and creeds, but I've never felt truly attracted to any one of them. And yes, I've only discussed my relations with men, but that's because I am attracted to them on some level... just not sexually. Perhaps it's some societal thing, where men fit into these little roles in my head that signal positivity simply due to societal standards. I do not share these feelings with women. I'm completely indifferent towards women, as far as seeing them as attractive and sexy. I don't know. This is a recent discovery, literally yesterday. Or really, I knew this all my life, but I never knew there was a name for it, or even a community of asexuals.
So what do you think, am I normal?