Is it normal that i don't want my mother to date?
Hello everyone,
I have an issue which is making me feel bad for almost 3 days. My father passed away when i was a little girl and the relationship between my parents was amazing. My mother has been single ever since and has not dated anyone. She is young and a wonderful woman. I am having a huge super hard time in accepting the fact that she might be in a relationship with someone. I cannot even look her in the eye. It makes me sick when i go to sleep. She has not stopped loving our father but now I caught accidentally some messages on her facebook messenger. They just popped up and i read some flirting. I almost threw up. I was about to scream. I dont know why this happened. In theory i have always felt that our mother should be in a relation because she deserves to be happy. On the other hand when i read those messages i felt horrible. I have not been able to sleep for days. Just the thought that in our mother's life might be someone else besides our father makes me freak out a huge time. I dont know why. My brother would never accept a second marriage and he has made it pretty clear. Our mother has said that she would never do this, however I have always said and I will never leave her alone. Our fathers death has made us very close and we love and respect our mother deeply. But when I read those message, actually i just saw them (because i am not that kind of person who check's someone phone. I have never done that) i felt like the world crashed on my feet. Is it normal to feel this way? Is it normal that I feel a terrible child and I do not deserve my mother's love?
I need help because I have none to talk to.