Is it normal that i don't visualize myself with my boyfriend of 5 yrs?
I started dating my boyfriend, Derrick, when I was 14. He was 3 years older and just my ultimate dream guy. Now fast forward 5 years and we live together and we both go to college.
So when I was younger I used to dream about us getting married and our life together. I don't really see us getting married and if I picture it, I know we'll get a divorce. He still pictures it though. I joke about my true feelings to him to see if he agrees but he gets really upset if I even joke about it. I'm worried I've changed. I'm not 14 anymore, things have changed. I still love him but am I in love with him? No. I see myself dating a 35 year old even though I'm 19. I've thought about breaking it off but I know I'll be so sad without him at the same time. He's my best friend. I just have no sexual desire for him but we still have sex regularly.
Is this normal? If your in a relationship and your girlfriend was thinking this way would you want her to leave?