Is it normal that i don't understand cutters?

I respect that you politely and kindly addressed this topic, so I'd just like to thank you for that.

I myself have struggled with MDD and GAD for some years, and have also been.. Well, a rather intense cutter as a result unfortunately.
I guess for me, it's a number of different reasons and triggers that give me the urge to hurt myself.
I suppose one would be self-hatred or disgust. Due to the way I think and how I handle situations, I am not comfotable with myself and find myself thinking "Why did you do that?" or "What the hell are you doing, you idiot?" quite a lot. I become self centred, and then feel guilty about being so selfish. As a result, I feel I somewhat deserve the pain I feel.

Another reason, can simply be from life becoming too much. Even little things can become overwhelming sometimes, and I think when lots and lots of things just build up over time, my brain goes into a frenzy, and cutting is the only way I can sort of bring myself back to the present. I guess meditation could be used and a healthy alternative, but when your thoughts are racing so ridiculously and you can't focus, I never have the "time" to think of anything else other than quick, simple, physical pain.

And I suppose, the one last part of it all is; It becomes addictive. I know that sounds crazy, and believe me, the people who become addicted, KNOW that it's crazy. But it's a quick release, a quick escape, a quick way to focus on a physical burning sensation instead of an emotional one. It's just simple and effective. I feel terrible for saying, but I like the feeling. I feel light-headed and sleepy afterwards. My mind slows down and I can just sit there without over-thinking for a while.

Anyway, I hope this helps and hope you're doing well!

Cutting, I guess how I explain it would be that I feel awful about myself all the time, my social life is destructive of my self esteem, my family life is in a disaster, my emotions are all over the place and I'm unstable and have nobody there for me to talk to and It it emotionally hurts so much.

I have no control over that but I have control of my blade and the control of the pain is intoxicating almost. Its just, I don't feel so helpless because I'm the one that has control. and when you're cutting you can't remember why you hurt so much emotionally anyways.

I'm not saying start because when you start you end up with scars all over you and then you end up not being able to wear what you want, swimming is out of the question, showers are difficult to handle, you wince when someone touches your cutting area and you can't tell them why because then they will think you're a weak nothing. It also adds extra emotional pain after the fact. DON'T EVER START it ruins you more than you were ever ruined before you started

I did it as a form of self-punishment.

I had poor impulse control and always said and did stupid shit. I felt so ashamed of myself and hated myself and yes, my parents did try to beat it out of me and no, it didn't work. Cutting was a form of self-punishment. Basically, if I punished myself for something stupid that I might have done that week, I had the right to forgive myself for my wrongdoing.

I always wore long sleeves, regardless of the weather, because I never showed anyone and nobody knew. I didn't want attention for it. This was until I eventually had to seek medical help due to a series of self-inflicted gashes on my leg becoming sickneningly infected.

I believe a lot of it is about this; Endorphins are produced by the body and can create a natural high.
So the physical pain causes a high that takes away the mental pain for a short time. Of course, those who do it often become addicted.
No matter what the cutter says, it is a cry for help that should not be ignored.

sometimes i do it to cope, sometimes i do it because i just like doing it its both sexual and i still get the release of endorphins too. me doing it for pleasure is a recent developement. im fascinated with scars. im trying to find other means for coping mechanisms. that said, because another reason i do it has nothing to do with coping with anything i dont think ill ever stop doing it for pleasurable reasons. when i use it for coping it can be dangerous and not as controlled because my emotions are all out of wack and im not in control. idk i know im all kinds of fucked up tho

I don't understand them either and here's the thing I WAS super depressed and I ate a lot of food (my only drug) then I got on anti-depressants. I was totally going to ask this question.

I had a friend who used to hurt himself a lot...
He didn't know he did.

No one can understand those foolish, warped, masochistic freaks. They would be much better off in a crazy asylum away from us sane people.