Is it normal that i don't see the point in life and have given up?

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I know that I've been suffering with depression for awhile and I am seeking help. I've had a string of unfortunate circumstances happen to me (eviction, separation, moving back in with mom, hours lost in job so its becoming more difficult to gain independence again, spousal abuse when there had never been any in over 10+ years) on after the other. I haven't felt anything in a really long time. I don't get excited or happy or sad or angry. I just feel neutral all the time and its a little unbearable - like not being able to sleep or something. Anyway, I've suffered through depression before when I was younger but I still felt the other emotions and I'm starting to get worried. After I overcame my depression I had a high about life outlook and was always happy and excited and driven and now I don't care as much about my goals anymore. I still want them but I've become complacent about maybe never achieving them. I don't see the point because I'm just going to achieve them and eventually die and it wouldn't have made a difference if I lived one way or the other. I pretty much just sit or lie in bed all day watching TV. I've kind of reached a mind set that if I died if I succeeded or failed everything would be the same afterwards so why bother? I used to want big things and to have an active lifestyle and now I don't see the point. Life just feels lonely and pointless. I'm not suicidal at all I just don't see what the big fuss is about living anymore. Is what I'm feeling normal and everyone's just lying to everyone's face?

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Based on 23 votes (11 yes)
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  • Ass_gas
    7 years ago

    Eviction, separation, moving back in with mom, lose of independence, and spousal abuse causes huge amounts of stress. And, many people become completely numb in these situations because they just can't experience any more pain. At this point it is easy to slip into just enough depression to withdraw to the comfort of your own bedroom.

    I am sorry for your situation, and think you need to associate with other people in a divorce support group. You need to help them. You can make a difference. They need your friendship.

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    • TolstoyDaydream
      7 years ago

      I guess I just feel discouraged because every time I interact with people I either get ignored or talked over and I rationalize that it doesn't even matter if I'm there or not. I know not everyone is a jerk out to get me its just hard to get out of this negative head space most of the time.

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      • always_curious_tj
        7 years ago

        People overtalk, ignore, and interrupt me all the time. I have no idea why, but it makes me feel like an idiot!

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        • TolstoyDaydream
          7 years ago

          Me too!! That and I always answer peoples questions because I know what's up and they don't trust my answer. So they ask someone else only for them to give them the same or an inferior answer. Its happened enough times where they should get the hint lol

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        • TolstoyDaydream
          7 years ago

          It just makes me feel like there's no point in me sharing company with these people. I had a "best friend" once who would always stand in front of me when we were talking to people. I didn't understand why. It seemed subconscious but it happened too often for that to happen. I was constantly moving so people could interact with and see me too.

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      • Ass_gas
        7 years ago

        You sort of need good listening skills when you are in with a new group.

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        • TolstoyDaydream
          7 years ago

          I like to think I have good listening skills. I always seem to give good bday presents because I listen to what people say. I'm very personal in what I like to do for people

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  • unseriousness
    7 years ago

    I won't say it's normal but I do know that a lot of people feel the same way. Unless you think you can change yourself, all you can really do is go with the flow and wait for the day you die.

    I can relate and I honestly can't imagine any way out of this mindset.

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    • TolstoyDaydream
      7 years ago

      As much as I try to cheer myself up I always end up reasoning against the positive things. Its tough :T

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  • mari_98
    7 years ago

    Well, I've felt kinda like that sometimes but it always got over. Half an hour I just found out my dad was interned (idk if that's the word) in a clinic to treat depression, and by what I could see he was feeling the same way as you. Spending all day long watching tv and sleeping, not wanting to know about anything, he even left his job. I guess that was the right decision for him, so he can again find his way on life and find out why life is worth living for. Just remember that are people who care about you and this is just one more reason why. Stop thinking about later, about your future goals, start thinking about know. There's one thing I always think when I don't know what to do, lost in time: one thing at time, step by step

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    • TolstoyDaydream
      7 years ago

      That's a good way to think about things. I'll give that a go (doing things one thing at a time) and see how that plays out. I've been writing a book I've had in my head for years. I'm struggling to get the ideas out but they come here and there.

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      • mari_98
        7 years ago

        I hope you're already feeling better by now!

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        • TolstoyDaydream
          7 years ago

          My mom threw a sauce pan of hot coffee in my face recently. *sigh* But I appreciate the well wishes

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  • nelly1472
    7 years ago

    i feel this wa and my life is still in the early stages. we can never predict the future and i am sure your spark will return, although it may require a little more than sitting watching tv

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    • TolstoyDaydream
      7 years ago

      I know. My therapist says I should put myself out there more and not reject invitations out. I just hate interacting with people I don't find interesting or even nice. Like why am I going to be fake and unhappy just to be normal? I like traveling but more by myself.

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