Is it normal that i don't really want friends?
I don't have any friends at all and a majority of the time that's totally fine. I like being alone. If I had friends I feel like I would be responsible for replying to them or hanging out with them, and most of the time I just wouldn't want to. I feel like friends would just be a hassle and something to worry about. I like to do what I want to do when I want to do it, so I don't need/want unexpected phone calls or plans.