Is it normal that i don't know what my personality is?
They all say life will change your personality and who you are, but I don't even know what it is. If you don't know me, I'm very quiet and shy. If you've known me and I "trust" you,I'm generally happy and energetic. On the inside... I am angry. I insult people, call them fat, ugly, and fantasize about them dying (Not me killing them, of course), or upset. When a friend is sad or crying, I will comfort them, but on the inside, I'm laughing at them. I'm also very whiny on the inside, and I'm hurt easily. I cry when the tiniest thing happens, and I don't even know who I am. The voice in my head seems to be two people, each telling me two different things. One is very mean and evil, the other very innocent and sad. I've questioned myself about it, but no one else knows. I can't trust people, because that bad voice says, "They'll turn their back on you. They're talking about you. Laughing about you. They're not your friends!" I can't take insults either, because the sad and innocent side starts to get upset.
Is it normal to not know who you even are?