Is it normal that i don't have friends just because i am different ?
I just moved into this new city far from my homeland for university. I'm a 18 year old guy. I am perfectly normal. I thank god for keeping me healthy and giving me a lot of stuff other people don't have. Over the past few months, there has been this volcano building up inside me after observing people in today's times. Be it in my class or at the store or anywhere. All I see is people trying to act cool so that others accept them and hang out with them. They sacrifice the "real" version of themselves so easily just because they need someone to validate their existence. No one likes talking to the guy who is sitting all alone in class. No one likes the girl who can't speak English. I mean why ? Who gave them a right to judge people ? I always smile at the guy who is having difficulty adjusting to life in a new country and make it a point to hang out with him for a bit, knowing that this might be the best part of his day. I know that he wont give anything in return to me and I am completely okay with that. Why do people do things for someone with the expectation of a favor or how the person might be useful to them later on. I open doors for old people. I know its such a random act of kindness but no one does it ! I mean how much time does it even take to hold a door open for someone ? 2 seconds ? What life-changing plan are you going to come up with in that time ? I just...I don't know. I feel as if I'm so alone. No one hangs out with me even though most of the people in the class greet me but it's as if they don't like that guy who is nice or different. They like hanging around with people who are so lame and self-centered. Why do these type of people get all the friends and popularity ? I don;t want to say, "I have lost hope in humanity" because that would be selfish of me. I understand that there are people who are nice now a days but I can't seem to find any at the moment ! I know it's a lot of stuff for a teenager to write about and I'm sorry if this is so long. I'm just tired of all this superficial behavior. Where have the acts of altruism gone ?People-pleasing, acting cool, thinking your cool if you don't talk to people who ain't attractive. I've just given up. I walk in at Tesco and ask the cashier, " Hey, how was your day ?" with a smile and they seem so happy. And i genuinely mean it. Who has interest in how their day was right ? Well I do ! And guess what, just because people are different does not mean I'm going to try and fit in with them. Hell with them. They are missing out on a good life. Is there anyone who relates to this ? In short, am I normal ? Thanks for the read.