Is it normal that i don't care about my mother

I feel like everything she say is a manipulation. she's not a bad person. it's the way how she grows up maybe, but I hate being manipulated. it all began 2 years ago. when I started leaving alone. I never work in my whole life and the problem's started when she was ordering me to search for a work in summer. but I didn't want to and she was like angry at me all the time and that made me really hate myself, sometimes I think that I'm a useless person(she say that i don’t do anything exept playing video games or going out with my friends). Also, I feel that she hate's me. I just want her to talk with me like she talk with my sister. she's like always showing angry face to me, always complaining and yelling at me, even if I do some mistakes, I believe that's not the way to say it. I'm not jealous it's just! man! Breaking my heart man! I'm so lonely I feel like I'm sick this is my first time I tell my story with... my heart broken.. and crying... and the next summer the same thing. now she's sick and I feel like I don't care about her very much ! i’m kind helping in the house cleaning things .. but i’m not realy sad and I don't want to be that person. I don't want to regret it in the future I'm really confused i don’t know what to do and if there’s a problem with me how to fix it realy my life is getting destroyed right now .