Is it normal that i don't care about anyone at all?

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I've gone back and forth with these thoughts...but the truth is I don't care about anyone or what anyone has to say. For example...on Facebook I see other people posting status updates that annoy or bore me...but when I post updates I get confused when people overlook them (I assume no "likes" means people ignored it, and I rarely get many "likes"). Other updates I see seem very contrived and obvious, yet they still get a good amount of replies and "likes". When I try to be clever and thought provoking with what I say I rarely get decent reception. I even had one person tell me that they blocked my posts from their feed (which I feel is stupid...why not delete me if what I say is that annoying).

I'm an introvert...and to a lesser extent, an elitist...but I'm not really rude about anything and I make serious efforts to keep in touch with reality, to the point of insulting myself as a way of remaining humble. I'm also loyal...but regardless of that, I have a hard time genuinely caring about people or what anyone has been up to. There are days when I wonder what people from my past have been up to but when I try to find out those people either shut me out or I grow bored with what they say, and I have to consciously remind myself to continue caring (and it's painfully obvious that they pick up on that). I've cared about people in the past and tried to keep friends but I have severe trust issues and I stop associating myself with people if they say something wrong or hurtful. I'm not confused about that though. Being friends with me is like holding a ticking time bomb and you never know when I'm going to blow up...however, I also don't go looking for new friends. I'm aware that I have poor mental health so I keep myself in isolation to ensure that no one has a chance to hurt or ignore me.

I'm thinking I'm like this for one of two reasons...either I've accepted apathy as a defense mechanism for the fact that no one cares about me...or I'm just a terrible selfish person...and if it's that, I don't really know how to fix it, outside of making someone care about me, and I REALLY don't know how to do that. I could give a list of excuses, like how I've had very people that genuinely cared about me (including my dysfunctional family), or how I've been hurt many times in the past, or how my own issues have kept me from any normal relationships, but I'm still confused why I don't care at all. I want to care but it's like I can't anymore.

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  • Terence_the_viking
    11 years ago

    You Soulless basstaarsd

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    • timone317
      11 years ago

      I suppose I should be insulted by this? Eh. Maybe I would if the comment had been spelled properly.

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  • InsertUsername
    11 years ago

    You seem like you need to talk, get out more. Have you thought about seeing a psychologist? When I had no friends to talk to and I was depressed, just being able to talk to a psychologist helped me out. It's like having a friend to talk to with none of the obligations of caring about them.

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    • timone317
      11 years ago

      I've thought about it. The problem is I get attached to people far too easily, and it seems like opening up to a therapist would be a bad decision, because it's not as if that person will be in my life permanently. I may as well be opening up to a wall...or strangers on the internet.

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      • criminalminds23
        11 years ago

        same here! I would be okay with talking to someone, but it makes me uncomfortable, and I too get attached really easily to other people.

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        • timone317
          11 years ago

          I've come to learn that people hate that. I tend to get personal too quickly. I know I'm overstepping my bounds but I can't help it, if ANYONE even gives me a shred of attention something clicks in me and says "FINALLY" and I can't really think straight. And if it isn't that, my introversion really drives people away. 90% of my sentences have to do with me...it's a terrible flaw that I can't seem to fix and I don't really know any other way to talk.

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      • InsertUsername
        11 years ago

        It's not going to do you any harm. You can't get the positive side of people caring about without having to care about them unless it's a psychologist. Just try it, geez!

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  • Shnaz
    10 years ago

    No one gives a shit about your worthless ass either.

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