Is it normal that i do this when something unexpected happens?
Lately when something unexpected happens that interferes with my plans or what I'm doing (& it doesn't take much), I will become enraged, pick up the closest object to me (usually my phone) and repeatedly smash it against the wall or table then throw it across the room. I'll start to cry out of anger and doom (That's how I feel, dooomed, like my life is about to end.) and then I'll start laughing. At these times I also have the urge to cut myself (but I don't so don't worry) because I feel like I'm going mad.