Is it normal that i dislike everyone i meet (and don't meet)?

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Ok, so I've had this problem for as long as I've known. I just can't stand people, and I would have to say that I am disgusted and hateful towards most people. However, I pretend that I don't hate people, and "friends" that I have think I'm the nicest most social and outgoing guy they have ever met.

I lie to everyone, including my family (Whom I also dislike and avoid visiting as much as I can). I can be pretty charming but I'm basically just lying about everything, even sometimes my name and where I come from. I'm not really close to anyone.

I hang out with a lot of Mormon people recently near the college I attend; they think I'm the best person ever, and one of the girls actually thinks me and her are "best friends" now *I've known them about a year*. But I'm not her "friend", I'm just using her I think. I hang around the Church a lot, but to be honest I can't stand anything religious, I don't believe in any of that nonsense. I tried to date a few of the girls but they only date Mormons, and I'm getting very tired of acting around them. This is how it always is for me, I act around people but when I get tired of them, used to them, or bored I disappear, even if I've known them for a couple years.

I recently had a girlfriend for about 3 years, we were "serious" but I absolutely couldn't stand her, she irritated the shit out of me and towards the end of the relationship I was downright nasty to her, and I cheated on her about 8 times. She never found out, because most of the girls I met I gave them fake names and a fake backround, I do this alot. This is just the tip of the iceberg, when I just chill by myself I know I'm not normal, I can sit in my apartment for days and be happy. People don't know the real me because I'm fake with everyone, literally everyone even family.

I'm trying to date other girls now since me and the ex broke up, I've been trying to get my ex back so I've been acting all sweet to her and everything, but I really only want her back to ruin her emotionally. If she declines my request then I plan on sending evidence of us sleeping together to her mother, that way her mom will pull her out of college. *She comes from a strict family, her mom thinks she's a virgin still*.

I don't feel bad about it, but I wonder if everyone is like this. I can't tell, I know everyone has an agenda for the most part and most people fake things, I'm just not sure if people fake everything that I fake, and I mean everything. I've faked hysterical tears, faked identities, faked emotions, faked being best friends but deep down I just despise everyone. I've even faked my styles of dress drastically over the years to fit in other types of groups, sort of like a chameleon but I've never really been "part of them" if that makes sense. I'm in my upper mid 20's

I don't drink, I don't smoke, I eat as healthy as I can *I'm a pescetarian and I only drink water*.

So what is going on? Does anyone know what is up?

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  • amili
    13 years ago

    I am exhausted reading this..... You are really really sad... I hope you get over this ego of yours and give the world a chance. It's actually quite a nice place..

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    • MahBoi24
      12 years ago

      Are you kidding? The world is cruel and awful. I don't see how anyone sees anything good in it...

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  • javagirl
    13 years ago

    Hmm.. you know I think I suffer a form of this too. But unlike you I do have a really good relationship with my immediate family, and I tend to not really get along so well with others. I tend to see other peoples' negatives really easily and just have a problem overall 'connecting' with others, and making genuine friendships . Im always suspicious that people are selfish and only out for themselves and have trouble finding people that I enjoy being around for more than 20 minutes! My problem is I love being with my immediate family more than peers my own age- Its a real problem esp as Im expected to break out and be on my own. I have met a few nice ppl along the way that Ive been lucky to maintain friendships with. But overall its hard finding good souls out there! Im not sure if what you're describing is the same... I think maybe you need to try to be less judgemental and more open. Im not saying you;'ll like everyone but maybe you;ll come across a few ppl along the way you admire- they exist and are out there-

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  • 8Serene8
    13 years ago

    I'm like you except I don't hate my family some friends or my boyfriend. Besides them I hate everyone else and usually fake being nice to them. People are usually backstabbing disgusting excuses for human beings.

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  • ooooooooo
    11 years ago

    hahahahahahahha you're actually more "normal" than anyone else
    it's perfectly fine although you should control yourself a little more in case arrogance could ruin you

    what's an identity anyways? sure we have our amusements but really how we identify ourselves is a total hoax. at least you don't lie to yourself into thinking what you pretend to be is really who you are.

    society is a total act...we're all imperfect, "horrible" beings walking about....lies give us sort of a thrill right?
    Although I think I do love my immediate family..I don't really care much about my friends. But I'm pretty skilled at lying to myself to the point I almost think I do, making it easier to act the part...

    really, you are absolutely normal and ironically honest.

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  • *~ThePurplePixie~*
    11 years ago

    God, you are so mean. I feel sorry for your girlfriend! My husband would never do that to me! Sending evidence to my mum! You need help, something to make you realise what a bastard you are!
    Go shove a pitchfork up your arse and scoop manure with it! There! That's how your victims must feel.
    I actually feel pity for you.

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  • Crystal123
    12 years ago

    Quite frankly I know exctly where your coming from. I realte to most of what you had to say. I enjoyed reading this and some parts made me laugh particulary the "I plan on sending evidence of us sleeping together to her mother" haha I cant answer your question, though. Although I do believe Im quite good at seeing through peoples bullshit I dont care enough to find out. I've learned to set aside peoples flaws and enjoy the moment despite whatever mask Im wearing. Seems to me you are not satisfied to do so. I hope you find you solution, luck to you my fellow chameleon.

    For the sake of this comment I believe I'll with the name-
    Crystal =]

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  • BfingIToucher
    13 years ago

    Personality disorder.

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  • randomjelly
    13 years ago

    All lies and excuses. You really hate yourself...talk to a shrink...you must be mentally exhausted.

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    • Zander82
      13 years ago

      No those things I've written aren't lies, this is what is going on, I am not lying. I'm not sure if I hate myself, since I feel like i'm the only person I know. Usually I have a pretty big ego, but I hide it pretty well but it's their, I usually think I'm the best person I know or something, like narcissism I suppose, constantly. But I'm not lying about these things, just wondering what is going on.

      You are right though about being mentally exhausted, it is.

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