Is it normal that i detest my mother?
On my dads side of the family, there are tons of artists, philosophers, intellectuals of all sorts who have traveled the world and became famous authors, musicians and other sorts of people. They are all highly intelligent wealthy people. They are also kind and loving.
My moms side of the family are coldhearted, mean snobs. None of them are even slightly educated, traditionally or otherwise. From my mother's side of the family, I got extreme OCD, Schizophrenia, Anxiety, Depression, A high disposition for breast cancer, super-sensitivity(I cry at almost everything... I'm a man for god's sakes)Nearsightedness, astigmatism, and countless other hindrances. The part I hate the most is the laziness. I give up after about 10 minutes of doing anything. I could have been a famous artist, actor, screenwriter, author, literally about ANYTHING I wanted if it weren't for my mom's genes. My mom is the laziest person imaginable. I once visited her in the fall, and while eating breakfast outside the milk was left on the porch. I came back 2 months later and the milk was STILL SITTING ON THE PORCH. She is quite undeniably insane.
It has depressed me to see my childhood home fall into such disrepair because of my mothers laziness. Everyday I think I see myself turn more into my mother (stuttering, forgetting words, forgetting what day it is) and I want to kill myself and her for poisoning my dad's gene pool with her degenerate bloodline. I curse fate every morning and every night because I'll never be who I want to be becaue of this woman.
IS this normal?