Is it normal that i desire to have parkinson's disease

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i already have a disability (bipolar) and i take meds for it, but many people i know tell me thats not a real disorder and is not disabling and its just an excuse to be on drugs. well i need no convincing because im the one struggling with suicidal thoughts on some days and overreacting on other days. so this is a disability no one can "see", unless they can relate. i also have a vitamin D deficiency that gets pretty serious when i stop supplementing (my bones start getting sharp pains, my muscles atrophy and take forever to recover, constipation, and extreme fatigue). one day i discovered this article
http://articles.mercola.com/sites/articles/archive/2011/04/09/is-vitamin-d-deficiency-connected-to-parkinsons-disease.aspx
Given mother nature's work of my existence, without ANY artificial supplementation, just throw me into the wild, and i wouldn't survive very long, i am by default a emotionally unstable, physically inept, failed product of nature. i shouldn't be allowed to breed because i have weak genes. TMI: it takes me several days to recuperate after ejaculating once. I deal with headaches and extreme fatigue for about 3 or 4 days afterwards, so what does that tell you??? So in this disability-friendly world, i wish i had Parkinson's so people could "see" my affliction.

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  • [Old Memory]
    10 years ago

    I don't think it's normal to wish health problems on yourself.

    At the same time I understand the frusteration of living with an invisible disability.
    I have neurological problems along with other health problems. I do not have parkinsons but I do have some of the symptoms of it. I do have essential tremors like someone with mild parkinsons. I cannot keep my hands steady and cannot keep still without being shaky.
    I would hate to get full on parkinsons because it makes it hard to move.
    It is true that people with a noticeable disability are more understood but they have it harder in some ways too.
    Aside from my neuro problems I have a connective tissue disorder and my joints dislocate easily. This cannot be seen either unless it happens but it keeps me from doing certain kinds of work. I get government paid disability but don't tell anyone in real life unless they know me well and ask because most people judge harshly on it and assume I am lazy.

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    • [Old Memory]
      10 years ago

      I get VA benefits from my service and I have had people tell me that I should go hang myself. People like to stay on their high horses..only until something happens to them, then suddenly its okay and they understand. Lol.

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      • [Old Memory]
        10 years ago

        well that's fucked up for them to say. I'd try to disregard those people because they shouldn't be important anyways. it seems some people are out just to bring other people down. maybe you can make them understand by breaking their legs.

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        • [Old Memory]
          10 years ago

          No, breaking their legs would just bring me down to their level or lower. I used to let it bother me a lot more than it does now. I have learned that some people are either just mean spirited at heart or they have trouble looking past their own thought processes, personal needs, and feelings which makes them unable to put themselves in another persons shoes for a bit. Also, everyone dies just at different times. I have seen it happen a few times and people usually give off the same energy towards the end.

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          • ilovethelittlethings
            10 years ago

            deep

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            • [Old Memory]
              10 years ago

              **blows undesirable load**

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